Dossier Done!

Yeah! I dropped our completed dossier into the FedEx box Saturday morning (2 days ago) to send it off to the courier in Tallahasse for it to be Apostilled - all 40 notarized documents that took me exactly two weeks of craziness to compile. Not bad though, I think two weeks was pretty good. Luckily, everything went smoothly obtaining the records. I expedited everything I possibly could, so I think that helped.
I have to say, as I dropped that envelope into the box, I had to resist the urge to try to reach back in, tear it open and recheck everything. Now I'll worry until I have it all back safe in my hands. It makes me panicky to think of having to do all of it over again if something happens - horrible thoughts of FedEx or the courier losing it or papers torn, etc. run through my mind.
Of course, then I will send it to the agency and it will go back and forth across the Atlantic a couple of times! THAT'S when I will REALLY worry!
I have started getting some things together for the trip. I made a packing list compiled from several lists that I found on various adoption travel websites. We are going to have to start shopping for winter clothes to take as our Florida clothing will certainly not suffice for winter in Kazakhstan. This is assuming no unforeseen delays occur that would push our travel dates off until spring.
I seem to be thinking more about having to leave little man for this trip. I guess since it is getting closer. I just don't know how I am going to do it! I have to just keep pushing it out of my mind.
I also joined a new yahoo group that formed - AdoptAttach - it is for discussion of attachment and attachment parenting. I completely agree with the entire concept and hope to learn as much as I can to prepare for our new addition. But, in many ways reading some of the posts makes me feel guilty and worried about the fact that I will have to return to work full time after 12 weeks. But, at least my great mom is there to help instead of having to go to daycare.
Will post again soon!